"Who I am is Consciousness... Life it self, experiencingthe storyline of a female human " --Sheilan
Since my first glimpse or awakening 35 years ago, all I have wanted in my life is to know the Truth and to "Go Home”. At a certain point, I realized that Truth could only be found inside of me, so I stopped looking for it outside of myself. This was a turning point in my relational experience with Consciousness. It was the beginning of understanding what the great teachers of this world have been trying to convey. I began to realize there was nothing to be done, but to watch myself be unfolded. All the notions of becoming something began to fall away, so that I could just be that which I already am.
Over the years I have perceived reality from many different levels of understanding, but when the Ultimate Understanding began to reveal itself, what it actually is, could not be denied. The Advaita, non-dualistic understanding, that Consciousness is all there is, has profoundly changed my life. In the early years on my path I had a guru whom taught from the Hindu branch of Adviata. After eight years with this teacher, I felt it was time to move on, so I left to explore Truth from other points of view. As a seeker, I explored and tried many teachings. Thirty some years later, I was powerfully drawn back to the Advaita understanding at a deeper, more profoundly basic level.
I have had many teachers along the way and I claim no one as my guru, but I am most grateful to the Empty Zen Circle, Joseph Campbell, Ramana Maharshi, Ramesh Balsekar and Wayne Liquorman, for their teachings have been the most influential in my final understanding. Advaita points clearly to "what is" without needing extra rules and bells and whistles to distract from seeing Consciousness As All... And the Zen Circle illustrates the Unspeakable Truth. Truth is alive and is "Not A Thing" and therefore cannot be taught in a linear fashion.
I have no personal agenda or personal power. My agenda is God's agenda. My power is God’s power. My breath and blood is God’s breath and blood. The notion that I exist separately is but a dream… Consciousness is all there is and will ever be. All my life I have been homesick for Home and wondered what is Home? Is it a place? Is it in another dimension on another planet? Is it me as an angel? Is it me as a spirit? Now I know without a doubt, it is not me at all, but it is I as formless God, Consciousness with all veils removed, so all that is perceived is only the One Self.
I hope you have enjoyed my website and have found some understanding to aid you on your journey to knowing YOU.